An insight of Veefessional…..a rare opportunity…

With so many things going on, I could not find any time to do anything. But I just feel like pausing for a moment, take some time to reflect, sit back, relax, hmm…perhaps I should start thinking for a while. Have been really too hooked up with loads of work, and with so many, yes, A LOT of things going on, I do not know where to begin. Okay, I just thought of a perfect point to start: Recess week.

No no no, I ain’t gonna describe a single thing here. All I have to mention is that, boy was it some week. A week of unpredictable happenings, things that I would never ever think could happen to me. The various things that occurred nearly turned me upside down from all angles. Yeah, from ALL angles. Just so many bizarre things that happened in this weird week. A philosophical point to learn is, it really takes something special to change a person, and that no matter how well-planned, or how cleverly a thing is constructed, for it to really have an effect, then some unpredictable, unthinkable, or should I say, things of near impossibility would have to take place. Anyway, I have gone through it. Asked if I would go through it again if I had a choice, I have no idea. Not willing, but there are lessons to learn, in an erratic manner.

Now, it is the second week after recess. Some effects from the recess week still linger on, but I am glad it is over. At this point in time, I am extremely stuck to my work here. With such an immense workload, I wonder, am I capable of sustaining it? I have no answer, currently. Time will tell. Should I fall, then I would really hit the bottom of the deepest canyon. If I succeed, it just seems like that’s just what I should be doing. Sigh. How should I calibrate the yardstick to measure it? Anyway, life goes on. I should just do what I am doing, and enjoy what I am doing. Am I? I think I am. Do I really do? That, I have to think further. I think I am though. Yeah, I really do. Just that, it has to be seen from perspective. Yeah.

Then, I started to appreciate song lyrics. Formerly, my ear was brilliant in capturing tunes, but deaf to words. I only picked up how the music goes, barely paid any attention to the lyrics. Well, I realise that lyrics have meanings. Deep meanings. Okay, it depends on how one sees it. Maybe I am being too analytical, OH come on. I do not give a damn about it. I just like to think about what the lyrics say and what it means, and try to relate it to how I am feeling. It is really meaningful. Here is a excerpt from the song Alone, by Avril Lavinge that reminds a person to think, and to be more aware or else, you will just end up messing things up before realising it, and that’s it. You face the repercussions.

“You’re so obvious, you’re so oblivious,

Now you wonder why, you’re the one alone,

So don’t apologise, you don’t even realise,

You screwed it up this time, now you’re the one alone.”

There are many more meaningful lyrics out there. The more I listen, the more things I relate them to. Wow, did not know that songs can be so…”artistic”. Lol. Well, life goes on. Oh gosh! It is already so late. Never “predicted” that I would actually take the time now to write. Have been so caught up, I never thought that I have the time to do ANYTHING at all. Despite the fact that this piece of writing comes with a price, my sleeping hours that is, well I guess, erratic stuff really makes a person do erratic things. =p

Nightzzz…